bitch

If you want it go and take it , i don't care . You want , you take it . Don't go on saying all those bullshit  stuff that you will wait or whatever and start commenting about me because you can't have it .  I don't want it either . Its better if you faster take over . If i wasn't guilty i also won't do this right . So you better stop criticising me . Only he can do that because i hurt him , not you bitch .

for that bitch .

Eh bitch , you better stop commenting on me alright . You were never in my life , so you better shut the fuck up . You try stepping in my shoes and see how hard i try to maintain . If you have never you better shut up . I swear one more tweet from you about me i will make life difficult for you , i don't mind when school reopens i go to the school to find and slap you right at your face . I do what i say . You better start shut your bitch mouth before i come and help you .

everything i gave , i break it .

so used to say i will love you forever , so where did the 'forever' go ?  I dont need the gifts from you to keep me remember the memories . Because this always in my heart , i would remember them . I had them for at least 4 months with me . Now i dont really think i would want to see them. I dont want to keep reminding myself of all this . I dont need . First time being so stubborn on returning everything back to you , i know i seem stupid going there everyday to give you back the stuff . But as i walk i remember all the times we walk together , as i climb i remember where we used to sit and talk about anything , i wrote something on some floor today . Something to remind me . I left with tears today , i dont know why . Cause i thought i move on . I guess it was just a ''thought'' . Dear Heart , please grow up get up move out . Nothing going to change anymore . Sincerely Brain . Thats what i tell myself everyday every night . So as to prevent me from thinking too much . 

I want a rainbow.

I'm indecisive I know that. I let you go and I want you back . But I know I cant if I did some heartache would happen. I don't like your friends , neither do you like mine . You made me leave them , but you couldn't leave yours too even if we are still in a relationship right ? Imagine if we are still in a relationship , I asked you to leave that girl would you ? Or could you ? She's your best friend. You couldn't right ? So what makes you think at that time I could leave my friends.? Never mind , all this doesn't matters anymore cause you are into your best friends and just trust me. , she will fall for you and you will understand my situation that time. Because a girl won't only stay at best friends. It's either she already has a boyfriend or she will slowly fall for you.

saying Goodbye isn't the hard part , it's what we leave behind that's tough

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together .'' - i used to think why , till i experienced it .  The old me use to pursue my love without thinking . Now i think before i pursue , because i don't want another heartbreak . But i cant control my heart from doing things that i shouldn't do . 

  

Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different.

Have you ever wanted to ask a question but you know in your heart , you wouldn't be able to handle the answer? I do . I always dream of our future , well I'm a #Pisces what would you expect . #PISCES love to daydream about the future . Still remember the day you to ask me something . If you ask me again , i would say ''i do'' but . Nevermind , you said you saw a old couple holding hands . WELL , i used to think that as you and me . You promise me to piggy back me when we are old around the park remember?.That promise is bullshit i guess . Cause it cant and wont ever happen . I would probably be around the park by myself with a stick or something. I wont have another one , i dont want to have another heartbreak .Guess what attracted me from the start of our relationship ? Your gentle mature gentleman character . This was kind of an unexpected relationship though , cause i didnt know it would last for so long .

Pissed

Dude, what I post here I have my rights. You not liking it ? Than fuck off and why did you even click on ? To see the ugly side of your face ? Hahahhaha , than go on and don't text me about it because it spoils my mood. What I post here its truth. Not liking it ? Too bad , do I look like I want a text or even a single fucking shit comments from you ? No really I don't. I already didn't tweet on twitter never say out the girls name I'm being too kind already. So you better don't text me because of what I post or whether I get emotional a not. Cause it's fucking my business now. If you text me , I expect a reply. So if you don't want to reply me please don't text me. Thank you.

idk about you , but i must fill every waffle square with syrup .

so yeah , the super utra tired me . IS BACK . HOOORAYYYY , OKAY . I was thinking actually what to delete for the msg and pictures . Yeahh , but i . erm . Okay i delete SOME . CAN XD . i couldent bear to delete all at once , too harsh for myself . Like so what if he maybe already delete finish ( actually i guess he did) maybe i will just keep some. For some memories of how i spent 1 year near to 2 years with him . Well , hmm. Should i ? AIYA DUCK THAT. Not looking at my phone tonight ~ because im young . WAITWAIT , AHAHAHHA A, I KNOW IT DOESNT LINKS . I was joking . SO yeah , i found some pictures that represent how i feel.  so yeah this is it . 

''i miss the old US''

sick of pretending , yes i do miss you . But i miss the old you , not now you , but so?. Things have change , we'll never be the same and really never . I dont count this 1 year plus as a waste of my time , i count them as a part of my sweet and horrible time . Today photos just keep popping into my heads , what moments we really had and now is all gone . This drama came to an end , as a stranger . But im kinda a bit happy about it , at least i dont have to worry anything except my friends . I can partyy all night and dont care whether he minds or does he miss me . You are enjoying life , im enjoying mine too with my friends that you didnt like . I was actually plotting on a revenge last few days , and i succeeded . You came to scold me , and i was quite happy by the way i text back . I love my last text that make you speechless . We are the same , just that at different timing different people and different situation . I really giving up this time round :) hope he find a girlfriend that totally listens to him . Oh wait , ahahha he already have luh .XD I have mine too , best barbies and kens . Deleting msg pictures . Maybe i should just give back everything , not by ftf duhh . Some other methods .

Chapter 6: Barbies And Kens party night out !

So yeah , I'm back from the stay over at Shermaine's house ! And of course , MYE officially ended . But wait till the results out . OMFG . But whatever , for now I'm still going to party myself . :D

Thursday 100512 , we went to BREAKFAST ND SPRAY CANS WITH all BARBIES AND KENS and some sweeties , YiQian and Patricia . :D . Than we went to ICE-SKATING at J-CUBE . hahahaha , super fun , fell down like 5 times but i was skating real good until i lost my balance . HAHAHAHAHAHA .

By then quite tired already , so GARY <-- @iCurryy treat us to eat FISH MANHATTAN! WOOPEEE ! Quite expensive . OH yeah , he gave me his newly bag too ! HAHAHA , now i got two bags cause i brought one too XD . HAPPY DIE ME . After that when to film awhile for something retarded , and did something ridiculous . IM NOT GOING TO SAY OUT THATS SOMETHING BETWEEN BARBIES AND KENS . XDDDD . After that all went home , super fulll . They took their gifts ! . a Spongebob the snail Gary for our ken Gary XD and a super hugable Stich for Felicia ! .

Dinner time ! Everyone was talking about our families and what we usually do , yeah . And than Shermaine's father surprised me with 8 dishes for us . OMG . REALLY DELICIOUS AND SUPER FULL ! . I like the soup and the onion rings and the sotong veggie ! XD . I eat a lot of the veggie though , nice siol .
After that we accompany Lishen go home , Gary and Jiayi they went off , they cant stay though . So Lishen accompany us till 8 pm plusplus , and we send him off to busstop .

After that , time to rest and bath and we cut some fruits to make fruit salads what a failure . XD and counted the left money . OMG , spend super lot . But i still wanna shop . :/ i want a new shoe a new bag . OMG . I dont like to buy clothes though , i like to buy bags and shoes to match them . XD .

Talking about clothes, almost forget to add in. ME AND JOJO BROUGHT THE SAME CLOTHE TO WEAR ! WE didnt know that though , just that mine was blue and hers is white . XD .
Was so freaking happyyy . !

At midnight , shermaine and Felicia was half asleep for FRIDAY . While me and jojo are watching ''Insidious'' i watch twice , but im still scared . HAHAHA MOTHERDUCKINGSHIT . We so so stupid that we didnt dare to go toilet and we wake up Felicia to help us open . XD , sorry ! XDDD . Still watch ''Running Man'' but half way cause too boring and some shows too but half way . And than we two are tired too , so off the laptop and sleep . But i disturb her with making the ghost faces we saw at ''Insidious'' hahahaha , super funny . While talking half way i fell asleep though . XD around 3.30 plus am .

At 615 , Shermaine wake us up . I was like nevermind 630 . HAHAHA , even Felicia . I bet she was tired due to us XD . We eat some waffle with honey , and than head off to school ! . Eng LC compare to all my years of LC it quite hard . But i guess can pass one . SO doesnt matters ! .

After we finish our last paper we went out to shermaine house to oack our sleeping clothes all those and when to lishen's house . XD . Use his laptop to watch ''Paranormal Activity 3'' not really scary as ''Insidious'' but yeah some parts scary only .  Than we went to CWP , but some really tired so went home . So left me , shermaine and lishen . Went to fujiflim to print something but than they printed out wrongly . TWICE TWICE TWICE TWICE !  Stupid waste my money . When home and now im blogging alrights . TIRED SHIT TOO , feel likke sleeping le . XD . Bathing firsttt . XD .


                    AND FINALLY SOME PICTURES AND POLARIODS OF US .

Barbies and kens aka BNK family photo XD

same clothes

i was epic . unglam . 

gags brothers forever . 

birthday barbie and ken !

emo felicia with her stich 

YiQian and Patricia

At manhatten

iceskate!

Fish n Chips dory ! XD . 

SORRY FORGET ROTATE . LAZY , 

THIS WAS DURING 1 PLUS 2. 

SOMEWHERE AT NIGHT . 

EPICCCC

AND POLARIODS NOWW . 

nearly all the polariods ! 5 packets of flim . XD .

Some i kept XD . 

Ice skating !

Thats the end !

maybabies .

Just a little update for you guys ,
some birthdays are coming up ! INCLUDING BARBIES AND KENS !

 cheers if you know her ! is !@ferleeshea on twitter ! SHE GOING 14 #13MAY2012 .

clap if you know him , his going 14 on #14may2012 ! @iCURRYY on twitter !













As youu guys should know all my barbies and kens are my life . They are forever in it , they live my life . HAHAHA , they party i enjoy . Just that simple but not much could do like us , childish and stupid . AHAAJAJAJ .

YOU CANT have a rainbow without a little rain .

Back on blogging today , tmr and Friday is going to party . I will explain why . TMR ART EXAM . WHICH MEANS ITS CREATIVE THINKING UH UH . After that , a bit celebration cant say out what is that yet :x , ice skating , filming of our next movie OH OH and i wanna buy a new bag . HAHAH . Still a bit pissed of uh , that girl . Cant say it out what happen is fucking obvious . You say i flirt , hey bro you flirt too . your friends too , so what rights have you got to scold me and ask me to change ? NO you don't  . So I'm just going to go closer to my friends . Who trust me , don't question me . Supports me . Go through thick and skins with me . I used to think it was my fault , since your hurt in this relationship i give up . HOLY SHIT , mindfucked . You have a new person to replace me ! HOORAY !  So what if i hurt you huh ? I didn't try to change ? Oh yeah , . You said I'm argumentative when you say about me . Than you ? I said things about you straight you shoot back . Aint we the same ? So dont blame me . BECAUSE you do it too .  OMG , i feel so stupid now . Knowing maybe some fucking backstabber or you called that ''good guys'' is going to maybe just show you . Or even provoke a fight . But i dont really care anymore . HEHEH , just some pictures i feel this few days .

I GUESS WE AINT LIKE THIS . 

i tried , you let go . 

it aint something to break . 

moments

because i love rainbows . 

the kind of love i was expecting , from you . 

And at the end , why disappointment happens ? Becasue of expectations in love . So people , dont expect too much it just causes either heartbreaks or happiness .